Resolutions

Its a brand new year and I have been thinking a lot about what I might want to accomplish this year. I haven't looked at my list in quite a while, so I should probably give that a lookskie to find out how many more things I need to check off before November of this year... I believe that is my deadline. But there are other things that I need to do before then, such as... once and for all lose this blessed pregnancy weight. I went to the gym this morning. It was the first time in a few weeks because I was fortunate enough to get sick over the holidays and therefore didn't go to the gym. I was doing well too. I was losing about a pound a week and I'm sure that I gained back all the hard work that I put into my weight loss over the last 3 weeks. Its hard to lose weight when you are stuffing your face with all the good stuff, aka, chocolate, cookies, bread, hot buttered rum... etc... etc...

The weight is the biggest goal that I have this year. I am not setting a limit for how many pounds or where I want to end up... In fact, I am not even going to step on a scale (if I can help myself). My goal is to just be consistent with going to the gym at least 5 times a week, preferable mon-fri and take off the weekends. I haven't ever been good with goals and setting them at the beginning of the year is so cliche, but... its how I have to operate if I want to see results... That and I can't be fatter than a few other people that I know... omg, I can't believe how shallow I really am! Well, actually I can. Maybe that should be my real goal... Try to not be so shallow. I'll bet some people would say that I couldn't last a week. And, maybe that's true... but we all have to start somewhere, right?

The next goal would have to be... try to be nicer to those that are close to me. I have been having a hard time with this lately... I don't know why but my tongue has been a little bit lethal. And, when its brought up to me or pointed out I get all defensive, because I know that its true. So, I want to be nice. I don't want to leave this life having people remember me as the sassy one who made the snide remarks all the time. Why can't I be sweet and lovable? I dunno, but this year I'm gonna try to be more sweet and more lovable than I have been in the past several months. Actually I don't think that I could ever be defined as sweet and lovable. Its time for a change.

Then of course there are the goals that I set for myself every year... read the scriptures every day, pray everyday, attend all my meetings. And now there is even more pressures with Tucy getting bigger and starting to grasp things. So things like actually going to church on a regular and consistent basis and actually reading my scriptures are things that I should be teaching her. She will learn about those things because of me and if I don't do them myself, how in the world am I going to teach them to her?!?!? It scares the bejeezes out of me. So, that is my goal... to actually DO those things that I tell myself that I need to do every year, but then fail at by March. I am going to make it a habit.

I don't think that I have anything else really that comes to mind for goals to set for this year... again, I'm not a real goal setter and I hope that writing this down helps me to focus on them so I can accomplish them. I reaaaalllllllly don't want to come back and read this next year only to discover that I didn't do any of them. I hope that I come back next year and can read this post with a little pride. Because I did indeed accomplish the things that I intended to accomplish.