A Reason to get Back into SHAPE...

So, I am thinking about blogging about losing my pregnancy weight. I think that it would be real motivation knowing that you all will be checking in on my weight loss and then I think... will I humiliate myself by posting about how much weight I have not only lost, but gained?

I keep eating crap and I have only been walking a few times since I have had the little bambino. I haven't even reached the 6 week mark since she was born and I have plenty of time to lose the weight, this I know. I just want the weight to be gone like, yesterday. I am finding that I am even more anxious to lose this weight than I have been any other time. I have gained and lost weight lots of times (it's sad I know)... But this time seems to be quite different.

We are heading up to Snowbird the end of next month and I don't want to feel completely self conscious when we are up there. I love the eucalyptus steam room and I don't want to feel like people are looking at me like I am the chubby-bubby up there. I want to be the cute, skinny new mom... not the larger, some what attractive mom... I know, I know. I am vain. I can't help it.

Oh and her are a couple new pictures of Tucy (that's what my little niece calls her).

This one is from a couple of weeks ago...This is from today...

She should be reason enough for me to want to lose the weight. I think though that I just need a little bit more motivation than that. Maybe I will feel differently once my incision doesn't hurt anymore. We'll just have to wait and see. In the mean time. Who thinks it's a good idea for me to blog about my weight loss? Don't feel obligated to respond... But, I am curious.

It's A Girl!!!Here she is!

Lucy Ellen
Born on Feb 19, 2007
10:13 am
5 lbs 5 oz
19 Inches long

We are so happy that she is here, even though it was four to five and a half weeks early. (The due date is debatable. Michael is convinced that I was 35 almost 36 weeks along, but the Dr.s at the hospital said I was 34 almost 35 weeks.) It doesn't really matter now, because she is here! She is up at the NICU and is doing well. We are hoping that she will be coming home within the week. I had to have a C-Section and I am recovering alright. I am just looking forward to having my sweet little one home.

Just Kill Me Now!

Why didn't anyone tell me how completely uncomfortable it gets this far along. I mean it's great that I am this far along (yay me!) but, c'mon! I woke up last night at 1:30AM and couldn't fall back to sleep. Finally at 4:00AM I just got up. I went downstairs and worked on the computer until about 5:30AM, then finally felt tired again. I went back to bed and didn't wake up again until 9:30AM.

This schedule is killing me! This is like the third time that has happened to me in the last couple of weeks. But once the kid gets here I'll be getting even less sleep than I am now, so I guess I shouldn't complain too loud.

Anyway, it's getting real, real close now. My Dr. told me last Tuesday that he would be surprised if I made it another 3 weeks. So, within the next two weeks I am expecting to have this kid. Hopefully it won't go beyond that... I don't know if I could take it. I am going to get a pedicure on Saturday with my sister and I am hoping that triggers something to make this kid come. Maybe, Maybe not. We'll see.



Oh... Happy Valentines Day everyone!

More changes afoot...

So, I have been training my replacement here at work the last two weeks. I think that she will be a really good fit once I can stop making her head spin every day. There is a lot to learn and she is basically starting from ground zero with all of it. I will be here with her up until I have the baby which is looking like another 4 to 8 weeks (if all goes well). Then, once I have the baby thats it... I am finished working completely. I am really looking forward to having this time with the wee one. Who knows if I will feel the same way once I get her home and actually have to take care of her 24/7? It freaks me out, really when I think about it.

I never thought that I would be the type that can only think and talk about having a kid once I got pregnant. But, look at me.. the last three posts that I have done have had something to do with my being pregnant. I just hope that I don't turn into the type that can only talk about their kid once it is born. Like every other interest that I once had is non-existent now. I really want my personality to stay in tact. Maybe if I draw attention to the fact that it bothers me when people leave their personalities at the nursery door then I won't be that way. I have seen it happen. There are people that survive and keep a sense of humor and even... a spark of who they were before they had a kid. I understand that having kids changes you. But, it doesn't have to change the core of you. Unless you want it to. I am done now... you can go back to your regularly scheduled program.